A Letter to Santa Claus

All I Want For Christmas Santa

Dear Santa,

This Year, all I want for Christmas is for my family to find the joy in Christmas again. Most of us have lost the Christmas spirit especially my mom. She now dreads the holidays because it's become so stressful. She told me not to get her anything for Christmas and it really hurts her feelings when she buys presents for people and they are never satisfied. This year she spent a ridiculous amount of money on presents for teenagers. she got one a new phone, she got one a new computer and it's just milking the fun right out of the Holiday. I think the total amount I've spent on my son for a number of presents, she spent probably more on one item for the teenagers. I know this year i'm getting a bath robe and that's awesome but I just want to have a happy family holiday season this year. I want to spend time watching Christmas movies or cooking in the kitchen with my mom and sister. I'm making Tiramisu this year because it's my favorite dessert! Now i don't have any money to buy a present for my parents because I have a newly set up budget. I also wish I could spend the holidays with my best friend in the whole world! I miss and love her so much! I wish one of us drove a car, i'd see her all the time then i bet! Well Santa, If you could help my family and friends have a great Christmas not only this year but every year there after I would greatly appreciate it!.

with all my love,

Selena

7 Tricks For A Successful Job Interview

7 Tricks For A Successful Job Interview

So I've had maybe 3 job interviews in my life, but they all were success stories. I made it passed the first interview at the most recent of the three and they are interested in a second so i can meet more managers of the company. The tricks I've learned for a successful job interview would be...

1. Dress appropriately. If you're going into an interview for a business job you would wear a suit or nice pants and blouse/dress shirt If you go to a job interview for even a more casual position like a food joint dress nice and care for your hygiene such as brushing your hair and teeth, take a shower before, etc. I wore tight black pants, a grey top and a tan knitted sweater. I had brushed my hair and teeth prior and even wore some makeup to cover the scars on my face. This makes the potential Employers believe you have self-confidence and that you take good care of yourself.

2. Give them a strong but not Tarzan crushing bones strong handshake. A firm handshake shows self-confidence. That you can take control and that you are equal to the person interviewing you.

3. Smile at the interviewer as you greet them. make them feel like you want to be there! A smile is a million words. It makes people feel comfortable to be around you and gives them an idea of how you'll treat other employees and/or customers.
4. Be outgoing and friendly, Find common ground with the interviewer and talk to them like you're just having a chat on the phone with your friend! (refrain from swearing) and keep eye contact. For me our common ground were tattoos and video games. I learned she was a World Of Warcraft fan and she looked awesome covered in all of her tattoos! I even had the courage to tell her that i'm Bi-polar which she stated was not a problem!

5. Listen intently to what they tell you, you don't need me to tell you to use every opportunity to learn something. But you get big brownie points if you try to be interested in what they have to say and what they'll teach you. I learned what GMOs are and some of their protocol for how the animals they use are treated humanely in pastures. Since this was a position at Chipotle I also learned exactly why they didn't have pork for a while. I learned they import their Beef from Australia and their Pork from the U.K. I like learning so I made sure what she said really stuck with me so I can relay that information in the future.

6. Do Not ask how much you will be making, they will tell you when they explain everything to you. Asking for the pay amount makes it seem like that's the only reason you're there. (Even if it is, you don't want them to know that) She voluntarily told me how much I would be making and it pleasantly surprised me. She also explained the benefits of an employee of the company.

7. Give another firm handshake when the meeting is over and thank them for taking the time to meet with you. They work hard and it really matters when they take some time to stop what they are doing and show interest in what you say and how you approach the situation. This was where it had ended and she told me I would be getting a call for a second interview so the other managers could meet me and she said, and I quote "We like to all see who we bring into the company" so having a second interview is a pretty big deal!

So whether it's a job at McDonald's or Chipotle, or it's a job in an office always be respectful and refer to these tricks I have listed and I can almost Guarantee you'll get "the call" CHEERS!! and Happy job hunting!

A Time To Treasure

A Time To Treasure

The Christmas holiday is fast approaching as the weather gets colder outside in the north of the United States. It starts with Black Friday most of the time. but isn't the time of Christmas supposed to be about Family? sure there's the presents to represent the time of giving but as quoted in The Grinch That Stole Christmas. "Maybe Christmas doesn't come from a store. Maybe Christmas; perhaps, means a little bit more" Christmas is about family and friends. Great company like family and friends in this time is "A time to treasure" and make memories. When I was little my wishlist was long. Now-a-days I ask for something small like a pair of Toe Socks or a movie. Always something cheap. My appreciation for family has grown especially since now I'm older and my parents are older and one Christmas they won't be around anymore. It's inevitable unfortunately but whether it's old age or not, any Christmas could be our last. So shouldn't we spend it in the kitchen cooking or at the dining room table eating with our loved ones? perhaps even start a fire and watch it burn with hot cocoa in our hands while draped with a cozy comforter just talking about our day. Today's children have something to believe in, Santa Claus of course but shouldn't they also believe it's a time to just be a happy family? Forget about your problems at least for a night. Read Holiday bedtime stories start a tradition, open one present on Christmas eve and bunker down with a Christmas movie. My favorite Christmas film as a child was the animated Jack Frost film he becomes a normal lad for one winter season and learns the importance of being who he is and not being ashamed to do so. That is why this Christmas I'm not going to obsess over presents and I want to teach my child the true meaning of Christmas which is Family and upholding handed down Traditions. Speaking of Traditions, what are some of yours? My family always puts up our tree about a week after Thanksgiving. My whole family decorates but my dad usually puts the Angel on top. We tend to watch many Christmas themed movies on television and occasionally sing along to our favorite holiday songs. My favorites are "Baby It's Cold Outside" and "Jingle Bell Rock"  As for Movie It's a 6 way tie, A Muppets Christmas Carol" because I love Michael Caine and of course the beloved Muppets "The Grinch Who Stole Christmas" starring Jim Carrey, "Nightmare Before Christmas", and "The Santa Clause" movies starring a funny Tim Allen. So this Christmas season, give you're loved ones, even the ones who you don't get a long with any other day. A hug and tell them "I Love You" Life is too short for there to be rifts within your family.

I'm Thankful For...

What i'm thankful for this Thanksgiving and for 364 other days a year...

My family is the greatest. There may be many ups and downs in my life, and I may, no, I do complain about my problems often. Honestly though, I'm very blessed. A loving mother who does so much to try to make everyone else happy and worries about herself last. She made my Halloween costumes since I was a kid, now she makes mine and her grandson's. She will lend people money not really expecting it to be returned. She tries to keep everyone happy and getting along with one another. My father has always been a tough loving person who keeps me grounded and in check. I used to hate him for it but my eyes have opened and I now see that he was just trying to make sure I wouldn't be a major fuck up in life. Can't say that i'm not still a fuck up in my own right and of my own doing, but I no longer blame my parents for it. My son Gabriel is extremely polite and gifted, he's incredibly smart and does very well in school and in his childhood. He is very sweet and loving. My youngest son Tristan is very goofy and loving. He can feel when i'm upset and will go out of his way to cheer me up and put a smile back on my face. He gets cuddly and sweet especially at night. He'll cuddle and say "Mommy's baby" as he snuggles into my side. He's almost always laughing and being silly.

I have great friends, My best friend Dani is always there to talk to and understands everything i'm going through because 99% chance she's been there and done that. She's the Ying to my Yang. We have the best time when we're together and miss each other like crazy when we aren't. There's my sister like friend Alice who is a goofball. She has no shame and I can tell her anything even though we've never personally met. There's a few other best friends I haven't met yet either but are always open to lending an ear. like Rebecca M, Elizabeth, Katt and Stephanie. Rebecca M. has always had my back and I've always had hers. We don't talk as much as we used to but we're still there for each other. Katt guides me through a lot of my problems and gives me a different outlook on what I could change. Elizabeth and Stephanie are very kind people as well and we both have our fair share of venting to one another. I also have my "Sisters" Jessica, Rebecca P., India, and April who always have my back and are very fun to be crazy with.

My job couldn't be better. I was completely blessed when I got this job last year in May. Everyone is so kind and patient with me. My boss Terry is one of the kindest people I know and gives me wake up calls to keep me on my toes and to not get lazy. She gives me first pick of new clothing donations if she finds out they're my size, She's gotten me items for Christmas, Last Christmas it was makeup in a little bag. She remembered my favorite color (Purple) so the eye-shadow was all different shades of purple and so was one of the eyeliners. She made her supervisor give me and Brenda, who are both Independent Contractors here, a gift card because we're staff too. She's even baked me a cake for my birthday. My supervisor Nancy is like a second mother to me. She listens to all my office ranting and venting about my home life and like Terry tries her best to find resources to help my situations. She is also very understanding and patient. She does everything she can to help me avoid getting overwhelmed. I love my co-workers we're all a family here, we poke fun at one another on a daily basis. especially Charles. He can't go one day without picking on me. I was devastated to hear my boss Terry would be leaving the company on early retirement because of medical issues. I might look for other employment when I hit my two year mark at this company and I doubt i'll ever find another boss like Terry, or another amazing Supervisor like Nancy in any other employments.

What are you thankful for?

What Halloween Means To Me

What Halloween Means To Me

Ever since I was a little thing I've loved Halloween. My first costume when I moved into my now adopted parents home was a green crayola crayon that my mother made. My then foster brother Andy took joy in taking me Trick-Or-Treating in our neighborhood and would wear a mask and occasionally try to scare me with it. I loved going down East Fairfax in Cleveland Heights each year collecting tons of candy and seeing the awesome decorated houses. Every year my mother would create the coolest costumes for me to go trick or treating in. My favorite was a Pumpkin Princess. I loved carving pumpkins and baking the seeds to eat. I also loved drinking hot apple cider. I remember one home on East Fairfax who would serve apple cider and doughnut holes every year. It was a little old lady and her husband. The lady was a lunch aide at my school and we absolutely adored each other. So every year i'd go to her house on Halloween and visit with her. As I got older of course I just began to buy costumes at the store.

My family would come over for a Halloween party and we'd serve food and play games. There was Bingo, and the mummy wrap game. and can't forget Free the Ghost! we'd eat amazing food and just spend time together in costume winning prizes and doing crafts. It was always a "hoot"

I remember my "foster" now adoptive dad and my sister always were a fan of scary movies. My birth mother too and watching them during the fall season. I can't count how many times I've seen Halloween or Candy Man, Or even watching Halloween town on Disney or Hocus Pocus on ABC Family every year. It was always a little tradition of mine and to this day I still need my Hocus Pocus and Halloweentown fix. not to mention the main Halloween movie The Nightmare Before Christmas.

When I became a mother to my 4 year old Tristan I then took part in dressing him up in costumes each year. First year he was a little monster like something you'd see on Sesame Street, next he was Casper, the following Peter Pan, after that he was Jack Skellington, and this year we're going as Cave People. He brought life back into Halloween for me since the family no longer throws Halloween parties for the outside relatives to come over and have fun. I enjoy taking my son Trick--Or-Treating and dressing up with him as my brother did with me when I was a kid. Tristan never eats all of his Halloween candy. In fact, I still have left over candy from the previous year!

Unfortunately East Fairfax lost an amazing couple and their creative juices for the Halloween Spirit. We did however find East Scarborough in Cleveland heights a very lively street full of scares and frightening decor to a mild light hanging and graveyards.

With all that said, What Halloween means to me is not blood, gore, and scary movies. it's about being creative and having fun. Having some quality time with the people you love most and putting smiles on your children's faces. It's a time of passing down spooky family traditions and delicious family recipes. Finding the fun in every holiday is really what it's all about!

A Love Non Existent

A Love Non Existent

I've gone through the agony of love too many times to even remember them all. My High school sweetheart Chris which was a poisonous love that made me put my future in jeopardy because of "Love" and the need to be together... I could be a graphic designer now if i hadn't NEEDED to be with him in 11th grade while i was attending a vocational class in high school to get certified in the Graphic Design career path. but no, i decided i'd rather run away from home and go to Arizona with him. If he really loved me he wouldn't have let me do that and if I really loved me and used my brain i wouldn't have done it either. We tried for a baby when I was 17. Luckily it wasn't in the cards for me at the time. We reunited when I was 25 and we did conceive then with a beautiful little boy that Chris now denies being his but maybe that's doing me and his son both a favor, he wasn't cut out to be a father.

Then I was 20 years old and fell in love with a Navy Petty Officer I had met online. He was stationed in Hawaii and I moved there after he proposed to me... Things were good for a while except I was pregnant and we couldn't afford food so we'd go to the Liberty Center whenever they served a meal. We got married and then he got dishonorably Discharged for 1. Posting personal ads on Craigslist when he was married and 2. Pawning cellphones when he had a high clearance. We moved to Youngstown, Ohio near his family and they all hated me. The stress turned him into an abusive monster. I had a friend run in in her underwear to pull him off me one day. We had a broken mirror in the bathroom from him slamming me against it. He would throw my 2 yr old son around like a rag doll. First I had my son sent to live with my parents in Cleveland. Then he would keep sending me to live with my parents every time we got into a fight then two weeks later lure me back with "I don't want to be abusive, I promised I changed" I would go back and he'd abuse me daily again in all forms, sexual, mental, emotional, physical It never ended. It was a bad environment for our son who was only 2 at the time. We even had a case open with Child Services and they told me the case would be closed as long as we were living apart. I got the courage to tell him "NO" The last time he tried to lure me back. We're still married but he has a girlfriend and our son who is now 7 and I don't want a man anymore.

After I separated from the abusive hubby I met a man named Michael. He was perfect! The intimacy was full of passion, He worked hard to buy me things and provided for my youngest son Tristan (who's father was my highschool Sweetheart) when he was just a baby. We lived together in his mom and her then man friend's home. I was happy, I attempted to cook, i'd clean and do laundry, built up a positive friendship with his mother Donna. Out of nowhere he broke up with me and I had to move back in with my parents. We were working it out but then on my son's 1st birthday he vanished completely. He changed his number and moved out of state. I heard from his mother that he had gotten married to another woman.

Online I had met another man named Mike. At first he was very attentive. He'd text me telling me he missed me and how he thought of me often. I'd hear from him all the time and we'd see each other often because he lived right down the street from me. At that time I thought life was good. Then he started to distance himself... we were together off and on for nearly a year. I'd start hearing from him once a week and then less... We had made plans to move in together. At least that was his idea, a few months ago. Now I completely ignore him when he'll text once every two or so weeks like he's done to me. He moved to Lakewood and works all the time and doesn't even try to see how i'm doing when i'm having a hard time at home it broke my heart. it's now September 27th and I haven't seen him since July 17th and maybe have only gotten a text from him 3 times in that span of time. My high school sweetheart Chris neglected me like that too and only one girl really saw my pain behind my forced smile. I still force a smile for my son but deep down i'm really hurting from this bad reputation I have with love.

Now I have given up on men. I don't use dating sites anymore or even really socialize with men in public. I am completely turned off by the opposite sex. I even wear a cheap engagement-looking ring on my ring finger in hopes guys just won't bother. Now I have my priorities corrected. I want to work on myself... Get out of my parents' home and live independently with my youngest son and then work on getting custody of my husband's a my 7 year old.  A-Sexual life here I come!

Fragrant Jewels "Caribbean Breeze" Bath Bomb Review

Fragrant Jewels "Caribbean Breeze" Bath Bomb Review

I purchased a Bath Bomb from Fragrant Jewels I have been seeing their boosted posts all over Facebook and was wondering what all the hype was about. I ordered the Caribbean Breeze Bath Bomb and it arrived within 2 weeks of my initial order. I unpacked it and took a sniff and instantly the scent blasted through my nose. It took me away to a magical beach surrounded by beautiful and amazing smelling flowers. It took me a minute to snap back into the reality that I was standing in my kitchen. I was then very excited to get to the bathroom and use this magically scented bath bomb. I unwrapped it and tossed it into the tub as it filled up with water.

It made a carbonated fizzy sound as it began fading away into the water of the filling tub. It took about 5-7 minutes before it dissolved completely and released it's clear capsule. Within' the Capsule was my prize ring.

I got on my phone and went to their site to appraise the ring which came with a code in the capsule hidden inside the bath bomb. My ring was worth $10.00

perhaps you will find a higher worth item in a more expensive item. They also sell candles, beads, scrubs, and wax tarts.

Plush Moji / Feet Moji Slippers (Large) Review

#PlushMoji / #FeetMoji Slippers Review

I've always liked using Emojis... The Purple Devil and the Heart eyes are my favorites when I found this website online. So of course I had to see what they had to offer! I had gotten the extreme pleasure to review these slippers for the website PlushMoji and I was first afraid they'd be way too big. They are a size large which fits to a woman size 14 and i'm only a 9 1/2. These are close to being the most comfortable slippers i've ever worn! I love the cute little Purple Devil emoji faces and the plushy well seemed exterior of the fabric, very well made! They come in other faces as well, Heart Eyes Emoji, Kissy Face Emoji, Smiley Poo Emoji, Grinning Emoji and the Sunglasses Emoji. I think they'd be the perfect gag gift or a thoughtful one depending which one you get, to a loved one or a friend. The site carries a ton of other emoji fanatic novelty items as well from key-chains to pens to Christmas ornaments. It's definitely worth a peek!

A Realistic Dream: A Life of Reincarnation

A Realistic Dream: A Life of Reincarnation

Do you believe that we've lived multiple lives throughout history? I always wondered but then I had met a man and as the relationship grew I kept having flashbacks and visions. I somehow remember a romantic outing behind a waterfall. I remember seeing that man before, he was a blacksmith welding away in the village under a mud and twig gazebo like shed. I remember the smell of a wood burning fire and a hint of sweat and hot iron as he struck a sword with a hammer and wiped his brow. I Remember going into the village to do somebody's bidding, maybe it was for a princess or a queen. My hair was long dark brown locks covered by a bonnet and I was so very beautiful in my dark teal and white maiden's dress. I remember feeling like I was as rich as royalty from having the secret love from that man and being completely satisfied with my life. This man I had met and I shared stories we both believed reincarnation was possible. He told me his story and even mentioned a love affair behind a waterfall. I have a hard time remembering anything from my current life. Is it because I remember so much from a previous one? I don't remember how I died or what my children's names were and now a days it's hard to retain any new information processed through my brain.

Some believers look at me and say I have an uncanny resemblance to the Countess Elizabeth Bathory. When I watch any documentaries about her I get this close feeling. Not to say i'm proud to possibly be a reincarnation of a serial killer but who doesn't want their fifteen minutes of fame? I've had outlandish fantasies that would seem like something coming from the mind of the great late countess. Also when I watched bloody movies i'd always get thirsty, It was very odd. There was even a time where I was intimate with my then husband and something seemed to had taken over my body, I was aware of everything happening but I had no control over what I had said or what I had did. It was a very scary moment in my life that I feared I would not control myself again. There was no diagnosis of split personality disorder and never was in the future. Tell me, do YOU see the resemblance?

Elizabeth Bathory

Me

Do you ever meet someone and it feels like you knew them from somewhere when you know you've never seen them before in your life? I've had a few instances like that as well. It's like instant best friends catching up on long lost time... centuries of time it could very well be! I met one man, his name was Michael and we clicked from the get-go and admitted "it's like I've known you forever"... I remembered being close with him in that life I depicted above. I actually think we were cousins. We were extremely close. After a while (in this life) we fell apart and carried on with our own lives. It also turned out that my now ex husband Trevor and I were also acquainted, He killed my lover in the life I depicted and was the head of the Ottoman Empire (or so we were told by a see-er) He acted innocent and won my affections in the past life, Which ultimately scared the man away in this life when he found out who my ex husband was.

Reincarnation could be either a blessing or a curse, for some... BOTH

5 Reasons Autumn Is The Best Season

5 Reasons Autumn Is The Best Season

Autumn (Fall) is the time of year to sit outside huddled in your favorite hoodie with a good book and a nice hot cup of Apple Cider. It's the time to take family pictures at the pumpkin patch or go apple picking in the orchard. The weather cools off from a humid summer season and the leaves begin to make their magical transformations from green to orange to red as they fall from the tree canopies overhead. Sure that means you have to rake the leaves before the winter season but there's even joy in that, Raking huge piles to let your kids play and jump in the leaves always seems to bring some amount of joy. There's also two wonderful Autumn holidays to look forward to during the season. One of which is my favorite holiday of the whole year. I will tell you 5 reasons why autumn is the best season of the year.

1. It's hoodie season! Who doesn't want to pull on their favorite hoodie, cardigan, or sweater and walk around the neighborhood admiring the trees? I love being able to wear my hoodie and a pair of jeans to enjoy the weather with a nice long walk or sitting on the front porch while my son plays with the falling leaves. Leaving the summer behind for another year we just want to have a bonfire and knock back a couple of pumpkin ale beers to revel in the new season and provide a nice cup of apple cider and glazed doughnut holes to the kiddos.

2. The changing colors of the leaves! Nothing is better than going outside daily to see how much the environment around you changed in a single night. Every day it looks like a different place and you don't even have to leave the comfort of your front lawn. Just close your eyes and breathe in the clean crisp air with the gentle leafy scent of wet grass and fresh fallen leaf the aroma can leave you hypnotized.

3. The various foods! Autumn is the time of being thankful and how else would you be thankful than indulging in the guilty pleasures of food? Thanksgiving is in Autumn and is the perfect time to surround yourself in the pleasant company of good food, family, and friends."Did you try Grandma's green bean casserole or Aunt Jemma's Stuffing?" Don't forget the turkey that can be cooked in so many different ways! The Pumpkin and Sweet Potato pies are very popular with the crowd this time of year also. I like stuffing with water chestnuts and gelatinous cranberry sauce and obviously the big juicy turkey meat.

4. Halloween is in Autumn! Who's favorite holiday is Halloween? I love thinking up ideas for costumes which i usually do in September. I love to see all the decorations being put out in store and on front lawns. My favorite thing about Halloween is to pass out candy to the Trick Or Treaters. I love seeing what costumes they come up with and you do tend to see some adorable ones. I also love taking my son Trick or Treating down East Scarborough in Cleveland Heights, Ohio They go all out on decor on that street. It's cute hearing my little 4 year old son say "Trick or Treat?" as we go door to door. We usually dress up as mother/son group costumes because he completes me Actually thinking of dressing up as character and dinosaur from Jurassic World this year and it's always popular with the houses we go to that even I get candy. The sugar rush we get that night is outstanding!

5. Perfect Family Time Season! My son is my world and it's tough being a single mother but there's twice the joy you get doing so especially in the Autumn. I love taking my son on walks around the block to look at the trees or play in the fallen leaves with him. Eventually I want to take him to a pumpkin patch and go for a hay ride and possibly an apple orchard. I like taking him Trick or Treating on Halloween and on Thanksgiving when it's my turn to say what i'm grateful for it's always him. I remember my dad taking me to haunted houses when I was little and watching scary movies with me in the living room with a fire ablaze in the fireplace or raking the leaves into humongous piles and letting me swim in them. Or going to a bonfire and having a few beers with some good friends. It's the perfect time of year to be around your family and friends.

Amy's Cute Creations of Atlanta Review

Amy's Cute Creations Of Atlanta

I was referred by a friend to check out this shop and I fell in love with the cute little Funky Sock Monkeys. I ended up ordering 2. A green Star Wars monkey for my son (pictured above) and a Bow Skull and Cross Bones monkey (pictured below) for myself. They came wrapped in decorative plastic bags and enclosed was an envelope with a thank you note along with business cards. The Funky Sock Monkeys were perfect until my son started throwing them around. The bow on mine undid itself and needed to be reattached it wasn't a big thing that would make me think any less of the creator. The Star Wars monkey's crotch also opened into a hole but that was because of the fabric of the sock used. The socks used come in very different fabrics. My monkey came with a bow around her neck and on her head and she had a very long tail and was wearing a tutu. Very cute for Halloween! I brought the matter to the attention of the creator and just asked for some easy fixes to the problem. I reassured her that I still loved the monkeys and gave her some suggestions on how to avoid those problems in the future. She told me "that's how i learn to improve" Overall these monkeys are adorable and perfect! She is making a custom order for my nephew and I will be buying more in the future. She also makes beautiful wreaths in her spare time which i will also be looking at ordering in the future.

About The creator, Amelia (Amy)

Amelia is a 54 year old woman who lives and sells her creations out of Atlanta, Georgia. She makes wreathes, seasonal table top artificial trees for Christmas and of course, her Funky Sock Monkeys. She made wreaths for patients in hospitals and thought "wouldn't the children prefer a toy they can play with?" and Voila! The cute Funky Sock Monkey creations were born! She loves pleasing her customers and creating custom monkeys for them. Each one is hand-made full of love and you can tell by the delicate detail she puts into her monkeys.

Contact Amy here: Amy's Facebook

or feel free to check out her page here: Amy's Cute Creations of Atlanta shop page

Born to Love, Raised To Hate

Born To Love, Raised To Hate

All this hate out there reminds me of a woman that lived in my neighborhood years ago. I do not know her name. All I remember was she was an older Indian woman. She didn't speak any English but would stop in front of my house 3 times a week while walking her grandson. My son would go up to him and they would start babbling and they would occasionally play in the yard together. She and I would just laugh and smile at each other while they made friends. You'd think this was a very long time ago with the hate that is plaguing the world today. In fact, it was only 3 years ago. With all the hate going on today I wish I could see her one more time and give her a great big hug. I was not raised to hate like many are today, I have black friends, white friends, Asian friends, and even one from Pakistan who I never once thought "Maybe he's a terrorist". a child is born pure of heart and loves everyone. Makes best friends in a matter of minutes with any child. They don't see skin color, or assume that person is a terrorist based on their religious background. They have no fear of another person. That is learned as they get older and as they are taught "these people are bad" or "These people you should be friends with" Personally, I think it's ridiculous! first the Jews were eliminated, and for what? then segregation between blacks and whites and then the Taliban that all Middle Eastern people are the bad people. Now it's Muslims. You can't hate a whole race of people based on a few of their poor choices. Sure Isis is a bad group of people but not all Muslims are Isis associated. You can't hate a person for wearing a turban,  Do you agree that sounds silly? "You wear a Turban so I don't like you" It's really all based on fear. People don't like many things when fear is instilled in them. On Facebook a Canadian man was putting me down and greatly insulting me... why? Because I'm American and to him all American's were inbred unintelligent wastes of air. Do you really want kids to become like him? To hate someone for the smallest difference? There needs to be changes in the world and more love shown to the children.

"Heal The World

Make It A Better Place

For You And For Me

And The Entire Human Race

There Are People Dying

If You Care Enough

For The Living

Make A Better Place

For You And For Me"

- Michael Jackson

Pokemon Go App

What Is Pokemon Go?

Pokemon Go is the newest trend in Augmented Reality gaming. Ultimately, you use your device to catch Pokemon and live out your childhood fantasies of being a Pokemon Trainer like Ash, Brock, and Misty. You create your avatar and proceed with real time GPS to move within' the map of the game to attract and catch the game's 150 Pokemon. You begin with either Squirtle, Bulbasaur, Charmander or the beloved Pokemon Pikachu. As you catch the Pokemon within' the game, it adds them to the Pokedex. The Pokedex is a journal of the various 150 Pokemon that you can catch. You can also go to the various buildings that are dubbed Gyms or Poke-Stops. Poke-Stops are where every five minutes you can get free items. and Gyms you are allowed to go to once you reach level five in the game. At level five you pick your team, Red (Valor) Blue (Mystic) or Yellow (Instinct) They all have different views on the training and upbringing of Pokemon. You get XP for utilizing Poke-Stops and for catching Pokemon. Within the game you obtain "Candies" when you catch a Pokemon and you can evolve it. It's a very fun game for all ages.

I have been apart of the Pokemon Go pandemic since the week after it came out. I find this game very entertaining but at the same time can be very dangerous for the people playing. I've heard so many stories about people getting mugged for their phones, or getting into accidents for not using common sense and watching where they're going while playing the game. I however have a little more sense. I don't look at my phone until I am on the sidewalk. I do not stop in the middle of intersections or the road while crossing the street to catch a Pokemon or utilize a Poke-Stop. I didn't think it was rocket science considering it reminds you to be aware of your surroundings on the game's loading page.

This game does however fulfill  my childhood dreams of becoming a trainer and I love being able to catch Pokemon. I also like that it keeps you active and moving. My foster brothers and my nephew also play this game and always want to go on Poke-Walks to catch Pokemon and usually are gone for up to an hour or more at a time. The bad part of it is my neighborhood has a curfew for minors and they think it's smart to go on Poke-Walks at 2 in the morning. My mother is dreading the day she gets called by the neighborhood officers to pick them up at the local station. I am on level 7 mainly because I only play to and from work and utilize a handful of Poke-Stops. I should make an effort to let this game make me more active, heaven knows I need to lose the weight and the exercise. The fact that this game doesn't target a specific age group is also very nice. I know people as young as 9 to as old as their 60's who play this game and use it for different reasons whether it be the "fulfilling dreams" game like me or just to make their morning walks more motivated and interactive. It's definitely worth checking out though just be careful, be alert, and be aware of the real world while you play. After all it is not real, it's altered reality.

Whisper App Review

I found the Whisper App on the Google Play Store when the app was just beginning to get popular. I've had my fair share of experiences using this application both good and bad.

What is Whisper?

Whisper is a virtual confessional app for your phone or device. You can tell your deepest secrets anonymously and let yourself be known at your own discretion. You add a whisper and can add a related image to your whisper's background or even take your own background image using your camera and customize the whisper's text style as well. It has it's own chat feature and you can reply to other people's whispers with your own response whispers. The whispers are broken up into four categories. Groups, Nearby, Popular, and Latest, they can locate other users near you with your location on your device. It has chat ratings and a block feature for members who might harass you. It is a good way to come out in the open about things you couldn't really tell someone to their face. The app gives you numbers of how many whispers you've created, Replies you've posted, and whispers you've "hearted" It also keeps all the Whispers and replies you've made in your settings so you may refer back to them in the future. The settings let you customize your username (default is "anonymous") which can be changed at any time and also change notification alerts and create a private pin so others that use your phone cannot access your whispers. If you uninstall the app all your stored information is wiped clean.

First of all, I made many friends on this app, one of which became my "soul sister" and overall my best friend. No one ever understood me like she did and it got to the point where one of us submitted a "whisper" we'd know it belonged to the other and mainly tease each other with smart-ass comments or "Replies" on the other one's whisper. We were texting buddies for 2 years while she lived in Kent and me in Cleveland, neither of us drove. She knew a guy in Cleveland and later on moved in with him on the west side. After 2 years we finally met in person and it really just sealed our fate as best friends. Now we'll be moving in together hopefully around next Tax Return season.

Secondly, Whisper is a good way to get your burdens out in the open. You can Confess anything to everyone and remain anonymous. Have a deep dark secret? Have to tell someone but you don't want a person to know you told? Whisper is the Go-To place for that. It definitely helped me when I needed to let some skeletons out of the closet.

Third of all, There's also the benefit of the positive support you gain entrusting your secrets to complete strangers there's the good and bad in that. I've connected with quite a few people and even fellow bloggers who gave me ideas. To review Whisper was actually among them.

Now to all light, there is dark and Whisper does have it's dark sides. First being, many of the users are of a younger generation of 14-17 year olds. So some of what you read include "my boyfriend dumped me i'll never get married" and a lot pett over-dramatic whispers and people just trying to get attention.

Secondly, Whisper is a "Troll Haven." You can't post anything without being judged by some of the readers and those readers are very outspoken in their response and opinions and will say anything to make you feel like a horrible person. You cannot be emotionally sensitive and use this app sadly you must have a bit of a thick skin.

Final negative observation is that this app is swarming with desperate men and women.You WILL receive your fair share of solicited and unwanted genital pictures. Whisper has been doing a better job to fight those unwanted solicitations by censoring pictures and making it your choice whether or not you view any and all images exchanged during a chat. Also you are now able to rate and block users at your own discretion.

Whether you use this App or not, all I can say is... "continue with caution"

Why I Would Never Subject My Parents To A Nursing Home

Why I Would NEVER Subject My Parents To A Nursing Home

My Biological Family

When I was three I was put into Foster Care and Adopted by a ridiculously loving and at times tough loving family. (Above is my birth family, Top Left: My mother Mary Coyne, Top Right: Harry (Douglas) Coyne Jr., Bottom Right, my sister Yvette Coyne, and Bottom Left: Myself aka Angel Coyne) Even though on paper they no longer have any legal rights to me they will always be my birth parents and I love them dearly.

My Adoptive Father and my youngest son

My Adoptive Mother and my youngest son at his birth

Pictured above are my adoptive parents. Anthony Sr. and Rita Bar. My Father was the tough loving type always was and always will be and throughout my teen and young adult life I hated him for it. My mother Rita on the other hand was always sweet, gentle, and loved you unconditionally with every last ounce of her heart type. With all the stories I hear about Nursing Home abuse, I'd never dream of letting all four of these people live their lives out that way. I wouldn't wish that harm on my worst enemy. My birth parents were rather young when they had me. My mother was 18 and my father was 21 or so. My adoptive family however are older. When I moved in with them my mom was 43 and my father 46. Both my mother and my mom have always expressed themselves in a creative manner whether it be latch hooking, sewing, gardening, painting. They know how to get work done. and my Father and Dad have always been the handy types. My father has always worked in construction and roofing while my dad was a lineman up until his retirement. but they were always doing something with their hands whether it was rewiring electricity lines through the house, changing oil and tires on the vehicles, or plumbing. My mom was there for two of my son's births My adoptive parents put up with so much from my troubled life and I have treated them very poorly in the past. but before you judge me, I have been trying every day to do something to make up for it now since their older even if it's picking something up for them off the ground because they have trouble kneeling now I volunteer to do laundry, take out the trash, move heavy objects. All this I didn't bother to ask them when I was younger. Now that my Adoptive parents are older I enjoy spending time with my Dad and attempting to be creative with my Mom.. My Birth mother was always young at heart. I remember going to her place when her and my father got divorced and watching scary movies and gardening. My most memorable moment with her was having a hose fight one night while watering the garden and her teaching my sister and I how to dance and be limber. My Father taught me how to make amazing Cream of Chicken noodle casserole. It's so easy to make but it's delicious. I also remember his visit to Hawaii when I was living there with my ex husband. My then husband climbed into the trunk of my dad's rental car and my husband directed us where we were going. my father ran over every bump he could find. He never liked my husband, neither did my adoptive parents. I should have taken that as a sign honestly.  I also had my first motorcycle ride with my father. My birth parents always got me nice things for the holidays and always came over to see and meet the grand-kids. My mother was reluctant to meet the grand-babies because she was convinced she was too young to become a grandmother but after time and a short falling out she did accept the inevitable and confessed to me that she keeps tabs on them through Facebook until she gets a chance to meet them. My dad loves his grand-kids particularly my youngest. He's always wanting to take him to the beach or the coolest playground and just overall spend time with him though he will yell at him when it's called for because he's still a tough loving grump. All this pretty much explains why I couldn't bear to see any of them in a Nursing home. You pay people to abuse your parents and that's just not right. When that day comes I will be their caregiver. My parents love me and I will in a way pay that love back when they become helpless They changed my diapers, fed me, taught me how to live in this world and make something of myself the LEAST I can do for them is the changing and feeding. They will forever be wiser than me. I want to spend as much time as I can in their presence before it's too late. Whenever my mom makes something I want one too. not because I have to have everything she makes for other people or for jealousy issues as she thinks it's because of but because I want to collect lots of  things she made with love to have when her time comes. She has always been my best friend and I want to have as much of her as I can. My Dad was never very artsy or i'd have him do the same, I just document our time spent in diaries and pictures and always volunteer to go places with him just to make a memory. I love you Mother, Mom, Father (Daddy), and Dad I want to make you proud!

Living a Bi-Polar Life

Living A Bi-Polar Life

I've been suffering from Bi-polar Disorder, Severe Depression, Schizoaffective Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Attention Deficit Disorder, and an Attachment Disorder also known as Borderline Personality Disorder for as long as I can remember. Even though i'm medicated for the Bi-Polar and the Depression these illnesses plague my life every day. My illnesses make it hard to maintain positive relationships with family and friends. My depression made me have a major setback in school. I wouldn't go for months at a time and since I had a hard time making friends, I would get into fights a lot and have manic episodes where I would be kind've mean and in Junior high, no one understood my illnesses. I was forced to transfer schools twice and I was put on an I.E.P (Individualized Education Plan) for my behavioral problems. I felt like an outcast and was treated as such. I did manage to graduate high school in 07' after I gave birth to my first child. My illnesses got the best of me and I went into a deep post-partum depression. I would not get out of bed for that child. My sister then took over the role of mother and to this day raises him because I wasn't ready mentally and is on the road to adoption. in 2009 I gave birth to another son and struggled but mentally was doing better. Until the husband and I moved back to Ohio from Honolulu, Hawaii. The move devastated me as well as my husband's aggression towards me and I fell back into a severe depression. I stopped taking care of my child to the point of full blown neglect. I felt horrible but at that point the illnesses were too strong to fight. I separated from my husband and in 2011 became med compliant. I became pregnant with my 3rd child and treated the pregnancy carefully aside from the occasional arm cutting due to the stress and mental abuse from the husband. I was hospitalized twice for cutting and once for possible preterm labor. After my third son's birth I took one look at him and I had the strength to battle my illnesses. I quit cutting and got back on my medicines. My illnesses seemed to go away for most of his infancy. I fought hard and did what I had to do. diaper changes, medicine administer, even woke up every time he cried to feed him. I washed his bottles and played with him. It was so hard to put him down when he was a newborn. As the years began to go by my mental health began to deteriorate again. Even though I would still change him in the mornings It's became harder to wake up in the mornings and there would be times I would just want to be left alone or I'd rather play on my phone than pay attention to him.I wouldn't take him outside to play or to the park. All I would do is feed him, get him a beverage, and change his diaper. I would have problems with my family as well. I would get very on edge about everything and anything said to me. I would go off very easily, especially on my sister and my mother. Everything they did aggravated me to the point I would start saying things i'd later regret.and be mean to them. I realized what my triggers were. being demanded, and people being extremely nosy. My mother and sister do both. My father didn't normally trigger episodes and when I got into these episodes I wouldn't talk to my friends at all and have hurt their feelings when i ignored my better judgement. Luckily I have two friends that understand me and my illnesses and forgive me after I have an episode and are sometimes able to calm me down. Good to have people who understand you.  I now also have a dog who is my emotional support dog she keeps me active so my depression can't take over completely and now I will sometimes leave my phone upstairs on the weekends so I can pay more attention to my son. my Mental illnesses have seemed to go into remission as long as I'm med compliant

4 Ways Prayer Has Worked For Me

4 Ways Prayer Has Worked For Me

There's many doubts of there being a God or whether or not Praying to God even works. I used to be skeptical of God and Praying until It had worked in my favor. Think about me and my story next time you need Lord in your life and remember Prayer works and God will always prevail when you need it most and this is coming from a once Atheist. 

1. I prayed for my misery to end. I was in an abusive and toxic marriage for a total of 5 years. I Was choked, beaten, raped, and verbally, mentally, and emotionally tortured on a daily basis that I resorted to self mutilation, or "cutting" because I found myself worthless. I would continuously cut myself with my then husband's knife or a razor on my right arm or leg multiple times a day due to the abuse. I eventually got strong enough to leave him. Every time we got into an argument he would call up my parents and tell them he's taking me to them because he was "done with me" I would move back in with my parents and nearly a month later he would give me the "I don't want to be like that I'll never do it again" sob story and I would fall for it. But then we'd get into another argument and he'd take me back to my parents. Eventually I got tired of the yo-yo of our marriage and refused to go back with him. For a while even though i wasn't with him I was still miserable and cutting myself. I fought with my father multiple times a day to the point I'd only eat if he was asleep or unless my mother would bring food to my room. I lost a lot of weight because my meals would consist of a sandwich or a bowl of microwavable soup a day. I would cry myself to sleep many nights or lock myself inside the bathroom with my razor or a steak knife I would sneak from the kitchen. This went on until 2011. When I became pregnant. I quit cutting because I quit letting my Husband get the best of me and quit conversation all together for the best for me and my pregnancy. that baby was a blessing and my prayer answered.

2. I prayed for a healthy baby boy. I became pregnant in 2011 and it was far from being an easy pregnancy. I would contract and would go to the hospital for them to stop the contractions since it was too soon. The Doctors even shot me with steroids to help his lungs develop faster in case he were to be born prematurely. I Always had morning sickness and cramping. It was a miserable pregnancy. Fortunately he was born a week early and aside from swallowing a little Meconium in the womb He was healthy, That is until he was hospitalized for a birth rash and they couldn't figure it out. I prayed that they would find out why my son was covered in red hive like bumps since birth.We were given various ointments and medications to clear up his rash but nothing worked and one made him break out worse. Eventually we took him to his pediatrician and he was diagnosed with scabies. We were both treated for it and it went away. God had answered my prayers once again.

3.  I prayed to God for my job, I was with a man and got a call on my voicemail for a job interview at the very agency I was working with to get a job. I was very nervous with it being my first interview, "um" and "uh" were very common in my answers to Terry and Nancy. When I felt more comfortable we began joking and my nerves were put at ease. After the interview was over I sat in the lobby and prayed I'd get the job. Sure enough God heard me and I got the job I hadn't felt more for-filled than that moment. It was a near exhilarating feeling. I have been at my job since May 28th, 2015.

4. I prayed for my relationship with my father to improve. As I stated, my relationship with my father was extremely shaky. He was a bit of an alcoholic and would target me with his anger whenever he drank to much. We tried counselling but we would not see eye to eye in anything the therapist would say. There was no hope so I would pray to God that my father and I would somehow resolve our personal issues and that Alcohol would stop inflicting havoc on the household. After I had my son, and got my job, My father started laying off me a bit more and began to drink less and less as the weeks went by. I started seeing things differently as well and stopped blaming him for all my problems. We began to develop a deep respect for one another. He would start to defend me when arguments with my mom would ensue and I him. Now in 2016 we couldn't be any closer. I bought him sweatshirts for Christmas, a watch for his birthday, and a heartfelt card and little slot machine/bank for father's day. I am now closer to him than I am to my mother. I am happy riding in the vehicle with him and when we have the house to ourselves. He taught me how to grill Hamburgers which I am still not close to becoming the Master at doing. Things have been going great.

So whether you believe or not, next time you are going through a hard time, need a job, or even just a laugh during the day try praying for it.

Free The Breasts

So did you know a cheap bra at Wal*Mart can cost $15.00? They really only last a couple weeks On average they cost $40.00 and last maybe a couple months. That's a burden for a big chested girl to go without a bra. I'm DD and I only own 2 bras at this present time because the cheap ones suck and the expensive ones I can't afford. The Bra Industry is a multi-million dollar industry and you know what? They can do that because of a women's need for bras they can make us pay absurd amount of money for one lousy bra. But these days more and more women are "Freeing" their breasts so to speak. They no longer wear bras. It's summer you can't see me or other big chested women doing that thanks to perspiration from skin touching areas. But alas many fortunate women, or the "Small Chested" women can get away with it. Almost makes me jealous! Heh, and men say we have NO worries in the world, only if they knew right?

Internet Trolls and Goblins

Internet Trolls started back in forum threads. The science behind them is boredom and as they say "miserable loving company" I know many of you have come across these creatures. Since I began my blog I've come across a couple and they flood to Facebook. Were they unloved as a child? Maybe it is boredom, regardless they seem to be the most heartless species. Not even human to a point even though they look like us but their hearts tend to be so cold and they get off on insulting people and trying to expose them. I will admit they used to bother me a great deal but that was until I realized they are talking hot air. None of their insults make sense or even have a personal value to the cruel things they think up. They are best described as cyber bullies. Cyber bullying will always be out there. It will always be the top reason for teen suicide rates being high and some adults even end their own lives. You just have to remember that these words are meant to hurt you and rise above it. Seek support in a group, or with friends. You can run from the Trolls and Goblins but you can't hide from them. To the victims of Trolling and cyber bullying, you are not alone! Feel free to talk to me I've dealt with various bullying most of my life and I can help you.

HeyFox Clothing: Purple Mermaid Leggings

I had bought 2 pairs of leggings from HeyFox Clothing I first saw the shop on Facebook and was excited when I saw they sold sizes up to 4XL, so I took a look around. Mermaid leggings are so hard to find in plus size, They're either non-existent or too expensive. I paid $13.99 for these when I ordered them. They are very comfortable and stretchy, These pair too looked too small when I laid them out but they fit like a glove and accent my best feature, my thick thighs! The leggings are very well colored and shiny which definitely gets a lot of attention. I will be buying more leggings from this online store in the future! The only problem was that the leggings take forever to arrive!

Buy them here: Mermaid Purple Leggings

La Vita E Bella (Life Is Beautiful)

La Vita E Bella (Life Is Beautiful) is one of the most beautiful foreign movies I've ever seen. It was released in 1998 in the United States It starts out as a comedy based around how Guido (Roberto Benigni) A Jewish waiter, meet's the beautiful Dora (Nicoletta Braschi) a high classed Christian woman in 1940's Italy With his comedic charm they meet in the most outlandish circumstances until she falls in love with him and he takes her away from her businessman fiance. Then they have a son Joshua (Giorgio Cantarini) Soon Guido and Joshua are separated by Dora and they are whisked away to a concentration camp. Guido sacrifices everything to preserve his son's innocence through the remainder of the time they are at the camp. Trying to find ways to hint to Dora they are well throughout their time spent. The movie then becomes very sad as was the Holocaust in it's entirety.The end of the movie there is a very bittersweet happy ending. I would suggest this movie to all my family and friends. It meets everything the heart may desire from laughter, to sadness, to tears of joy. This movie has it all!

I bought it off Amazon here:  Life Is Beautiful

HeyFox Clothing: Star Wars Leggings

I had bought a pair of Star Wars leggings from HeyFox Clothing They seemed small when they finally arrived but when I put them on, they fit perfectly! They are very comfortable and the material was very stretchy. I thought that my thick thighs would warp the faces but in fact they did not. I paid $13.99 for these leggings and for purple mermaid scale leggings as well. I was impressed that these leggings come in plus sizes unlike the other legging stores you find online.

Wearing my Leggings

Fur-Parents Are Parents Too

Fur-Parents Are Parents Too!

My son, Fur-Daughter, and Myself

So I see a lot of comments where pet owners are not parents. Why? Puppies, Kittens, Cats, Dogs they're all like children, Aren't they? You have to bathe, feed, potty train them, give them lots of love and affection. They are very much like children if not more so. My puppy gets into everything and makes a mess wherever she goes, just like my son does. I have friends who would die for their pets. their pets are their babies. My "Pessa" is MY baby girl and I tell my son I have 2 babies. Him and her. so now when we all cuddle he says "mommy's two babies" He loves his fur-sister and always wants to be around her. So I'm having trouble seeing why pet owners like my friends and myself can't consider our pets our children or our "fur-babies". Everyone says dogs and cats are like children but they can't be "mommy's girl" or "daddy's boy"? That makes no sense. I say hell with it. If you have a pet you love with all your heart that you consider it a fur-child celebrate Mother's day or Father's day you ARE a parent to a child it just so happens to have paws and a tail instead of hands and feet. I consider myself lucky to be the mother of a person as well as a fur-baby. I love them both!